Make it your care to love Christ greatly, and this love will move you to love other people also, and to acquire patience. Bring to mind our Christ. His sacrifice on the Cross was not because we loved Him, but because He loves us; and poured out His Blood, in order to free us from sin. Pray, and God will help you ... And implore God to bring you close to Him, and to give you patience. He is compassionate, and will hearken to you --- provided that you seek it from Him.
This is well worth watching and sharing with others: An Ortho Answer to the Question: “Are you saved?”