I thank God for granting me many illnesses. I often say to Him, My Christ, Your love knows no limits! How I am alive is a miracle. Among all my other illnesses, I also have cancer of the pituitary gland…I am in dreadful pain. But, I pray, taking up the cross of Christ with patience…I’m in great pain, but my illness is something very beautiful. I feel it as the love of Christ. I am moved and I give thanks to God. It is on account of my sins. I am sinful and God is trying to purify me. When I was sixteen years old, I asked God to give me a serious illness, a cancer, so that I would suffer for His love and glorify Him through my pain…God did not forget my request and He gave me this benefaction after so many years! Now I do not pray for God to take from me the very thing I desired. I am glad that I have it so that I can participate in His sufferings through my great love. I have the chastisement of God: For the Lord chastises the one He loves, (Heb. 12:6). My illness is a special favor from God, who is inviting me to enter into the mystery of His love…That’s why I do not pray for God to make me well, rather I pray for Him to make me good.